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"I like smiling; smiling's my favorite."  I love that line from the movie Elf.

I don't know if it's the Christmas season or just the season of life I'm in, but I find myself smiling (and sometimes it's randomly).

Last night I was driving after doing some Christmas shopping, realizing how broke I am now, listening to Christmas music on the radio, but feeling a warmth and gratitude and joy that has slowly been returning to my life.  I pulled out my phone, opened the Notes app, hit the record button and started talking.  A little weird, I know, but I didn't want to type while driving so I let the phone do it for me.

"Lately I find myself smiling.  I don't really know why I'm smiling and sometimes I don't even realize it.  I laugh about it.  I am laughing at myself for it.  I find it funny that here I am, a year and a half after I thought my life has fallen apart thinking that there's no reason to go on, and, yet, I'm smiling.  And for no reason."

I decided that I'm ok being "broke" (I'm really not, but since I had to go into my savings account to pay for my Holy Yoga downpayment, I decided I'm "broke").  I decided that I'm giving myself the best "material" present (and the most expensive present) I've ever given (or been given)... Holy Yoga Instructor Certification.  [God has given me the best present I could ever be given... Jesus... and eternal forgiveness and love and grace and life.]  Holy Yoga, for me as a participant, has been life changing.  I can't even fathom what Holy Yoga is going to do for me as I go through the training and as I become an instructor!  I am so excited!

So, maybe that's why I'm smiling.  Smiling because I know God has HUGE plans for me in the form of Holy Yoga.  I know I'm bound for greatness because I will be working for the One who has planned out everything for me, for my own good, and for His glory.  I will be working to bring people closer to Him through meditations/devotions with hearts and exercising their minds and bodies through the practice of yoga.

And, so, I smile.
Peace.
Kyla